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lamianspectre) wrote2009-11-29 12:18 am
lamianspectre) wrote2009-11-29 12:18 am
*sigh*
Well, the Thanksgiving holiday is almost over. In a few hours, my parents will take my sister to the airport, and then later on I will drive back up to KC and scramble to put things in place to get ready for finals, write a couple papers and pretend that I have some kind of purpose in life. Maybe I do, but right now, my head is a million miles away, wishing I could just go to Germany and get away for a while, maybe make something new for myself. Maybe I should. I don't know yet.
It kind of makes me wonder if I'll be okay if I do move to Europe, but then, I do ok as long as I don't come home, don't remember how nice it is, or think about my family and how much I love them, even though I do quite a lot. I'm the sentimental one, always worrying, always wishing I could be in about 4 places at once, and always wondering what the future is going to hold.
I think about mortality a lot, what life will be like when people are gone, and it makes me very sad.
I dunno... I can't think right now. I need to sleep soon and stop sniffling and think about happy things... and I am, but with them things that aren't so happy always turn up...
It kind of makes me wonder if I'll be okay if I do move to Europe, but then, I do ok as long as I don't come home, don't remember how nice it is, or think about my family and how much I love them, even though I do quite a lot. I'm the sentimental one, always worrying, always wishing I could be in about 4 places at once, and always wondering what the future is going to hold.
I think about mortality a lot, what life will be like when people are gone, and it makes me very sad.
I dunno... I can't think right now. I need to sleep soon and stop sniffling and think about happy things... and I am, but with them things that aren't so happy always turn up...